right Now

Socialising

I mask up when I socialize. I got loads of different ones but I always gotta put one on if I’m talking to someone new, or even someone who I’ve been around for years when I’m not feeling myself. If I can’t represent myself entirely and unapologetically as I am, then nothing in a social situation is real. Two people, two masks and one dance. It’s all just a delusion to keep the wall between us and uncomfortableness up. That’s why I don’t do small talk, it’s not real

Being sober

yooo so it’s kinda like i can express myself better or i can connect with my true feelings and identity when im on psychs or smoked up, i understand the world we live in better, i feel at home

that being said i try minimise the amount of time i take things and raw dog life sober cuz i’m sure i’ll be able to reach that level of comfort eventually without any help

When working 

Stuck In traffic

like when i’m on the bus going into central or wherever and i’m on the top and there’s so much traffic and i see all the cars and the people and the noises i just don’t feel real

Solo walks outside

It’s just kinda like when you’re out in the big open space with people and things happening all around you it’s just your place really feels so minuscule and being on your own it’s like whether or not I’m here right now everything is still happening things will still continue as normal it’s almost humbling tho yano 

When you have that herd mentality

5 the fact we as social animals tend to seek information from others when making decisions but that forms an unnecessary preset of thoughts, almost as simple biases like crowd tends to gravitate towards an artist/person with more number of people/followers behind them over a lesser recognised/unheard individual who would have better and credible works/reasoning to their views cause of the mob mentality humans are used to. as much as it helps people make decisions easier without being swayed over by other influences 

When Im broke af

When I used to get the bus home from college in the winter  and it was cold and dark

When waking up after a nap 

Wen im asleep

At a job thats not fulfilling  

Working my job