This past week I decided to head back home because the stress of London was too much and I could only see it getting worse so a break was definitely due. and what other place do I choose to slumber,  sunny old Coventry. being raised here and out of London can really shape you. being back made me realise the definition of Stockholm syndrome and boy it's not nice, I'm only grateful that I was able to leave

Moving on, settling back in is always the worst part about coming back, my mother has decided to turn my room into a storage room, the room where it all started now succumbed to cheap shoes and suitcases. it only gets worse when my camera breaks and halts my whole promo process is ruined. a bit dramatic I know but that's just me. The plan was to shoot a home video style edit for the first single and really and truly I was stressed.  God bless John from Facebook marketplace with the big ass house who blessed me with two new cameras for a steal. I'm tryna get a house as big as that cus boy his house was bigggggg.

But the stress continues. A deal of being blessed with two new cameras but because they're so old they work like shit and I gotta buy cleaning tape. what the fuck is cleaning tape? shout out to Capitalism and Amazon for getting me that tape the same day I ordered it. 

Whilst I'm writing this and thinking back to this moment I don't know why I let small things get to me. me writing about this is making me realise that these hurdles I've dealt with when trying to make music shouldn't stop I should just keep going. cus the way I was cussing out the world and everyone on it, you would think I've felt the most ultimate betrayal.

personally, I just want everything to go right so when shit doesn't I feel so stressed about things. this is the story of my life and partly the reason why i stopped releasing music for a while

a lot of these blogs are not gonna make sense as I'm just writing about my thoughts and half the time I'm either thinking way too much or the other time I'm just not thinking at all. but nether the less the main purpose of this trip was fulfilled even if I had to spend 300 pounds on this shit when I was planning on spending nothingggggggggg >:(