I think too damn much to be honest, Its one of the reasons that i dont release music. im scared of what people think as if their opinions are like weaponry. i think most artists feel like this. but what annnoys me in my life is the thought of finding a switch to kill these thoughts and move without any mental friction. sometimes its gets real tiring and i just wanted to live life without this stress. But during the summer my life came crashing down. After what felt like a victory lap of a time period quickly turned into the worst period of my life. How quickly life can change in an instance. I was working as a bike mechanic for Lime and i learnt a lot about myself. I like comfort a lot. but wheres comfort gonna get me. Working there made me feel like my father and to be honest id rather die than feel like him. I was at my lowest point. i kept getting bad news after bad news but something keeps telling me to keep going and i dont know why. I think a higher power has put me on this earth to fulfil this mission (a mission im yet to find out what the objective is ).
I now work for god. im not religious, religion is a scam in the 21st century . My relationship with god is personal. he made me how i am and i dont wanna change that. He made me to create so thats what im gonna do without the thought if anyone fucks with it. its for Him , then me , then u.
I sound delusional as hell right now but to be honest i couldnt give less of a fuck anymore.
In terms of music , Synths and samples ( a project ive been working on for the past year ) will be out when i get 3/4 music videos out. Instead of striving for perfection it should act as a stamp within my life so people know how im really feeling. its a light project. nothing too special. however its mine and i love it for what it is.
Im gonna keep working, thanks to those who stuck around all this time believing in me you guys are the best.
